M.S.

So this hasn't been a topic of my blog yet. Yep I have it and nope I haven't discussed it yet. I try not to let it have much affect on my life...or is it effect. I always get those two confused. Anyways regardless of my wants and wishes it does. I am tired all time and I have to take tons of medicines every day and shots every other day and my legs hurt and I get headaches and I forget things and I get grumpy and I heat makes me mad and I'm cold all the time and a multitude of other M.S related crap. So yeppers M.S. had an affect on my life. Even if I try to keep it out.

Some days I come home from work so tired I just sit down on the couch for just a minute and I wake up and it's well past dinner time and guess what? No dinner, cuz I fell asleep and nobody cooked cuz that's my job! Well, hopefully in the new life I am now scraping together for myself, that won't happen because we will have chores and some days it will be somebody else's day to cook or somebody will just step up to the plate (haha funny pun there) and help out poor old mom!

Some days it's almost impossible to get out of bed because of the headache or somedays my eyes hurt to much to even consider driving. Those days, I just stay home, because I couldn't see to work anyway.

I think I am in the middle, or maybe if I am really really lucky, the end of a relapse. One day, I had these very strange visual disturbances. I was at work, and looking at my monitor, when out of the corner of my eye, the keyboard appeared to lift up and sort of dance/jiggle. It was enough to literally bring me to tears. I was bawling. It just didn't stop. I had to move the keyboard out of my line of sight so I could continue reading my case, then move the keyboard back to continue working. Then later in the day, the cord to my telephone appeared to do the same thing. It was a bad day!

There is other stuff too and I probably should have been writing it down, like I said I would, but I haven't been. I know I am short tempered. But that is to been expected with all I am going through, right now, you know? And OMG stress causes M.S. flare ups or exacerbations, or relapses. Not like I dont have enough stress in my life. But that is part of why I am doing what I am doing. To eliminate some stress in my life. I physically cannot tolerate the stress! M.S. says so!

I went to the opthamologist and he couldn't find any signs of an M.S. flare up. But I have an appointment with my neurologist next week. Its the replacement neurologist. My guy got pushed out of the practice because he cost too much and now I have to go to the new guy, I guess he's ok, but he just isn't the same, you know. MY guy was the guy who was able to find out what was wrong with me when nobody else could, after years of seeing doctors who acted like I was nuts or just having regular headaches like everybody else!

Anyway...I have been assigned the task of errand boy...so I will be running out to the store now. Guess I am done for now anyway. This got kinda long kinda fast.

TTFN!