So trust is a big issue in a relationship. My daughter just had her first big break up. Her boyfriend's best friend told him she cheated on him. AND he believed the friend instead of her. She didn't cheat on him. I should clarify. At their age, the boyfriend/girlfriend relationship consists of holding hands and texting.
Anyway, I explained to her that boys/guys have this weird rule about "bros before ho's" which means a guy will always choose his male friend before his girlfriend (then I had to explain that "ho" was a euphemism for the word whore but if a guy ever called her a whore she was supposed to clock him right on the jaw no matter what!). But I told her in a relationship your partner/boyfriend/spouse should always have your back, always choose you.
That got me thinking about my relationship. I still feel betrayed. I still don't feel the trust. After last year, I don't know that I ever will. He says that he isn't going online saying those things, that he isn't looking for a relationship like he did before but I don't trust him. Will I ever? How can I? I know he texts other women, I know he pours his heart out, "I'm down, I'm depressed, I'm having a bad day"....boo-fricking hoo! That's how it started before! And he is doing that hug-y, love you thing again...yep, I am reading his texts and his messages. I don't trust him and he said he wouldn't do those things and he says his ISN'T but he IS!
So I say, how can I trust him not to start that again, when he is lying to my face, and he is starting down that path already? What am I supposed to do?
The trust is mangled and broken and lying in the path like it has been run over by an 18 wheeler...
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