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So after I wrote my blog this morning, I started thinking...actually I went back to bed to try to sleep this migraine off.  But while I was laying there I thought, that blog I wrote should've been done like a military report, with all of the info there, but all of the good stuff redacted.   So this is how that first entry of the day should've looked.  

So, back in late fall our oldest son came to us                                    t 12 he                    he was                                             . He                             he just wants                       he         home.  I                     fall                .  I love him                                                                                stress.                             daughter finds it somewhat                                 with.  She                          brothers."

So my middle child, has        .  He                                                   twice a               with     of w    ter.  The             the             the            . .The                       the                            room.  The                                        .  But he                             how                             him or how                         him.  He                                             his                              .  Coming in from work and                                 y,, take a rest from getting up so early, is so hard.  When I get home I just want to sit down and rest for a few minutes,                                                   .

So this thing with Paul,  we have started marriage counseling, no secret there.  But the marriage counselor says we are not equipped to deal with the big things yet.  But she asked us how we ended up together.  The answer I gave was ok, but not correct.  I thought about it and the correct answer was that Paul was my best friend.  But over the years,                                           Paul h                                             are             .  That                     hurtful                   .  This            been                  few              when               been                       , but                                  .  So                                       that I                                                       ) that I                 him                  he                   but if I           his             that I                                                                         out.                                                                     work.         He        to         to      Sherry his        .   I         him that was the         .  He        to tell me that him                     her his                                           we had and that I was                               into                                                  s.  I told him that        it             't take                t we                if                is his                    .  I told him                   I                     to                and              to                .                 he  it.  I am again feeling this indecision.  Alone and adrift at sea...

He says                                about                      her.  That our                       are             .  I want to                that is        .  I need to          that is       . 


He says                            , but                               .  I asked him to                              .  I told him                                                                                   .  I just wonder why now?  Why now is he willing to make changes?  And is he really willing?  Am I putting my eggs in a basket with holes in bottom?  This is a scary time for me.