Okay, so it's been a week since the Ping! was banished from our lives...it seemed like a dream come true. Saturday and Sunday were great. We had a great time together, but by the time he got home from work on Monday he was sullen and depressed and he said it was because he had realized how much his actions had been hurting me. And he felt guilty and he as sorry. I said it was in the past and it wasnt his fault and lets let it go and move on.
But Tuesday came and he was more sullen and depressed and then Wednesday and it was the same story...he said he was dissatisfied at work. (This sounds scary familiar, this is how he gets fired.) But I don't think it has anything or at least not much to do with his job...I think he is missing his Sherry fix. I am boring old regular home life and she is interesting online, South Caroline or wherever.
But since he has been like this, he has been so distant and it has been so easy to fall back into the relationship patterns that we had built up over the years of living like room-mates and not the new patterns we have been trying to establish.
It's hard to want to cuddle up to someone who is acting like they just aren't that into you...it feels like pretending or at the very least setting yourself up for rejection and seriously, who wants to be rejected by their spouse of 21.5 years? That is a serious smack down!
Well, I have tons of housework and yard-work and grocery shopping ahead of me today...and I haven't taken my morning M.S. meds yet. So I gotta get off of here! More later I assure you.
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